clarity

I don't know about anyone else, I can only speak for myself, but sometimes I get this feeling. It comes from nowhere, at least nowhere in particular that I am aware of. It's quite a euphoric feeling. I just get this sense of security. Its a moment that comes and goes, but within this moment I know that no matter what is going on everything is going to work itself out eventually. Not only do I feel that things will work out, but it's as if everything in the world makes sense and is logical. Everything is simple and most importantly is I accept things that normally I just would'nt even deal with. When I get this feeling I feel untouchable in the sense that nothing or no one can bring me down. Unfortunatly this moment passes all to quickly, and is gone before I can mentally prepare from coming down from this high that I seem to have been on.I am always seeking this feeling, but can hardly ever obtain it. It has a mind of it's own really coming whenever it pleases, I just wish it would stay, but while I am in this positive mental state I try to make the most of it by writing, or drawing (not very well I might add), its just nice to remember.

Memorial Day weekend

Memorial day weekend is always a weekend that my family, especially my sister and I look forward to. This is because this weekend every year the annual Bakeout is held. Now your most likely wondering what is a bakeout? It started out with my dad and his high school buddies camping out on this specific weekend. They started it when they were in high school, and continued on. Eventually they started to bring girlfriends, then eventually wives, and then finally children. The first few years i remember the bakeout I remember it as camping in the woods, but things have changed since then. The whole camping thing wasn't quite working out for the wives and children anymore, so one year it was decided that they were going to rent a house. So for several years we floated around different states and stayed in different houses, but for the last five years we have been staying on the Jersey Shore, and renting the same houses. The group has expanded so much that we need to rent two houses now instead of one. Now that you know how the bakeout came about you may be wondering well what do you do? Well my dad and his friends act like they're in high school again. They stay up all night drinking and playing poker and other various gambling games. Then theres the kids, they love this weekend because they have no bed time at all, well they do, but its never inforced. They play games watch movies, we all go to the boardwalk at night, and spend most of the day down by the ocean.
It really is a great weekend, and lots of fun.

Question Sheet

Looking down on this question sheet I have chosen question number 7. I'm really just trying to figure out which question I can elaborate on the most.

Whats your preferred mode on communication? My answer to this question was that it depends on the person your communicating with and what you are communicating about. This brings me to relationships. Everyone has a relationship with the people they are in daily contact with. It depends on the level of the relationship how you communicate. For example I only talk to certain people via email. Other people I have a closer relationship with, therefore I would talk to them on the phone.

The second part of my answer was what your communicating about. I wouldn't have a serious conversation through text messaging, some things need to be said in person, or on the phone. It is important to have the ability to know what kind of communication is appropriate where, when and how.

Whats your name?

My name is Heidi Logan Evans. Up until this past weekend I really had no knowledge of my name. Why my parents chose it, the orgins of my last name, or really anything. So i asked my dad about it, and well there is no fabulous story behind it, not that I was expecting one. But the orgins of my last name Evans is Welsh.
The story behind my first name is that my dad had a friend in high school with a sister whos name was heidi, she was blonde and pretty. Seeing as both of my parents had that beach blonde hair there wasnt to much of a chance that i was going to have any other hair color. My dad thought that the name Heidi was a pefect name for a pretty blonde girl...so hence the name Heidi. I was courious as to what it actually ment, so I looked it up and the name actually means of nobility, or noble, kind; star. This is a German name. My middle name is simple to explain, its just a family name on my dads side of the family. So that is what my name means.

Welcome Message

Okay...fist of all, I don't like talking about myself, but I suppose its necessary in this case and kind of difficult to avoid it. So here it goes...most importantly is everyone must know i love my sisters...the first one is 13, shes everything to me, not only my sister but doubles as my best friend. This is slightly unfortunate due to the fact she lives in the Hudson Valley with my mom. I see her as much as possible and I'd do anything for her and spend any amount of money on her if I could. Her name is Ashley. When I'm with her acting my age is deffinatly on the do not do list. My second sister is 9. Her name is Rachel. She is actually my half sister from my dads second failed marriage, she lives with him, as do I. I commute to St. Johns from Huntington, Long Island.

I love animals, at my moms house in Dutchess County we have 3 dogs and 7 cats. When I was younger I wanted to be a veterinarian. I have one cat at my dads house.

Other random facts:
I love country music
lavender is my favorite color
i like to blow bubbles and pop them with my tounge (the soap kind)
dress up with my sis never gets old
i was a cheerleader, and ran track
coffee is an addiction
paint by numbers is a must
nothing is black and white, its all gray
i can not....i repeat can not cook, bake or anything of the sort
i do though love cleaning although my room is curently a disaster
been a vegitarian for 7ish years
im overly emotional
Memorial day weekend is the single best weekend every year of my life
I dont hate alot of things
I have a very open mind
....anything else, just ask...